What is the truth?

Have I been lying to myself?

I really thought that I had been doing quite well food wise. I really, honestly did.

I know the SH and the mood hasn't been great but the food, I thought that side of things was better.

But apparently it isn't. 

The gp told me today that she is referring me to the ED team. 

I didn't want this. I didn't want this at all.

I have always managed it myself. Well, with my old psych, gp and school nurse. So why now? Why must I go to them now?

I am not really sure what I think.

Was I just fooling myself that I was doing well? What is the truth? Because I don't know what it is anymore.